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The Will To Live Fit

Since my last post I have experienced an “epiphany”


Yes, seriously. I have finally found my WILL to live fit, and work out consistently. I’ve accepted the fact that up until now, I have had the DESIRE to be fit, and healthy, and slim, and sexy, and a size 6…. But, desire alone is not enough. I’ve lacked true 100% COMMITMENT to do what it takes to get myself to my goal. Of course, I had found some important level of commitment – or I would not have started, and remained on the Medifast “Take Shape For Life” Plan for the past 6 months. However, the meal plan combined with sporadic exercise could only take me so far. For me, that meant from start weight 185 dropping to 160. A loss of 25 lbs, and dropping from size 14/16 to 12. Not too shabby – but after 6 long months, not good enough. At 5’3″ my ideal weight and body fat % means I have to be between 105-130, and somewhere around size 6. Being the reasonable gal that I am, I chose 130 as my goal.:)

That means I still have another 30 lbs to go. But, I had just STOPPED losing. Completly stuck week after week at 160! And, no significant loss in inches. It didn’t help that I sabotaged myself the first 2 weeks of December, (combo of frustration/anger/holiday cheer) regaining 8 pounds (yes, 8)  – but then I managed to lose them again by the 2nd week of Jan, and remained STUCK again at 160. OK. Something had to change.

God Giving Life

For me, it was a paradigm shift of thinking in terms of a spiritual nature. I believe in God, and I believe in holy scripture. The Bible teaches that my body is a gift from God, and a temple for my spirit. Therefore, I have been given a holy responsibility to take care of it. I’ve known this all my life, and I have made many healthy commitments – such as no alcohol, tobacco,  misuse of pharmaceuticals, or street drugs…etc…and trying to eat fruit and veggies. But this time, I really pondered and let the idea sink in. I realized that I don’t have to do this alone. If God gives us a command, then He also gives us a way to accomplish it. In fact, I am convinced, that for me, I can not do this alone. I needed to make God my workout partner, and all I had to do was ask. So, I had a serious chat with Him. In prayer, I made a commitment that I would follow His command to take care of his gift (my body) and asked for Him in turn to open the way and give me the strength to follow through.

Since making this commitment with God, everything has changed for me. I’ve made a serious promise that I don’t take lightly. And, I feel a renewed power inside of me.

My commitment:

  1. Wake up at 5 am every day, go to the gym and work out six days per week. (Sunday – day of rest)
  2. When days are warm enough, walk the dog at least 30 min.
  3. Continue following my meal plan / water intake as close as possible

God has made it possible for me to wake up this early without even hitting the snooze button every morning (if you knew me, folks, you would realize this took divine intervention). I’ve gotten my butt out the door every morning. I’ve moved my body for 1 hour every monring.

The result has been nothing short of miraculous.

#1. I feel great!

#2. I’m loving the variety at my local gym, and the ease of just following a simple daily routine:  getting up, putting on my gym clothing (which I lay out the night before) and leaving the house. It’s a 6 minute drive. By the time I get up, brush my hair and teeth, get dressed, drink some water, and drive to the gym, I arrive a few minutes before 5:30 am, which allows me to secure a good place for a 5:30 am class. Or, I jump on a treadmill, or other piece of equipment. This particular gym even has a “movie room” where I can work out in the dark with no one watching me, and cool fans blowing, while I enjoy a feature film playing with surround sound (yes, totally cool).

#3. Scale results: My first week of new routine = 161. Ugh, gain of 1 pound! But, I realized it could be muscle gain or water retention, so, I kept up the pace, I tried a kickboxing class (which had me limping the next day…not injured – just aching in places I hadn’t felt for years), and I increased the speed/incline on my machines. This morning, the scale read 157! WOOT WOOT!! A 4 pound loss in one week. Best of all, I have finally broken the 60’s barrier. I’m MEGA energized! I am also comfortably wearing a size 10, and Mediums (instead of Large). [I bought myself a sexy red dress to surprize my hubby at our yearly valentines dinner. It’s a size 10. My 16 yr. old daughter even told me I look “hot”.] This is getting good.

New Challenge: With the mega calories I am burning, my appetite has also increased. I have had to ramp up my water intake, add an extra MF meal or snack per day, and am chewing a lot of gum when the sugar cravings hit around 3-4 PM every day.

Bottom line, everyone has to find their own WILL, and inner COMMITMENT to live fit. I’m so grateful I have finally found mine, better late than never. I give all the Glory to God. I’ll try to make time to post pics and a video this week.

Live Well and Keep Surviving! – HK

New Year’s Reckoning

There comes a time for a final reckoning. Today is mine. And, the date adds an extra incentive, of course, as the very first post of the New Year, 2010.

OK. How in the heck did I stop posting for so long?! It’s so embarrassing!

“Don’t look back, just move forward.”

I’ve been really, really, really busy! I have a family, and two full-time jobs (1 paid, 1 volunteer), My volunteer job involves nights and weekends, and it really ramps up during the holiday season. Plus, this is not my only online writing project.

“your excuses are good, but they aren’t helping”

Alright. Enough wallowing in my lost opportunities. Today we are at Week 21.4 of my Medifast Take Shape For Life program. [That’s nearly a marathon, folks]. My video cam is at work. But, I’m not so stupid I’m willing to go back to the office just to fetch it on my holiday off. So, this post will just have to be a less-than-visual experience.

Here’s a weekly summary since my last post:

Nov. 16th – Week 15 Weight 160. (see my last posting, which included cool “before” and “current” photos)

Nov. 23 – Week 16 Weight 160. No loss. I was discouraged. I was also facing Thanksgiving week which scared me! So, I religiously stuck to the plan, and only allowed 2 small cheats that week. Ironically, I was assigned to bring the pies to the family party. I brought gourmet catered pies, and I only allowed myself to eat a half of one slice. Even though I didn’t cheat too much, I was still really worried about my upcoming weigh-in.

Nov. 30 – week 17 Weight 160. Again. No loss. 3 weeks in a row! But, no gain. I try to console myself that it was a holiday week. Even though I hardly cheated, maybe I wasn’t staying as scheduled as I should? I probably could drink more water. I guess I just have to stick to it really hard this coming week and maybe see a big drop next week.

December 7th – Week 18, Moment of truth…Weight 159. I had FINALLY broken the barrier! That was definitely something to be happy about. I tried not to think about how slow everything was going for me. But it was discouraging. Still, tried to focus on the  joy of finally being in the 50’s again.

December 14 – Week 19 Weight 156. This was really fantastic! Finally a 3 pound loss, and best of all, nearly a 30 pound weight loss total! I celebrated by cleaning out my entire closet. Anything that was too big went in the bin. I ended up taking nearly all of my clothes to  the thrift store. After donating them in the back drop-off, I walked around and went inside the same thrift store and bought myself a new wardrobe. It was so much fun! I was now officially a size 10, with a couple of size 8. Finally, people were really noticing my weight loss and commenting. Even my boss noticed, and praised me! [that’s saying something, folks] I looked great! I felt great! I was too happy to see the looming cloud…

December 21 – Week 20 Weight 160. A 4 pound gain. My worst slide to date. This past week we had celebrated our Anniversary, gone out to eat, and we went to several holiday-themed parties. A “little taste” here and there, and not drinking my water and sticking to my plan and routine added to a lotta pounds on the scale. I resolved to try hard to stay on plan as much as I could with the upcoming Christmas week.

December 28 – Week 21 Weight 164. Another 4 pound gain = 8 pound gain in 2 weeks. Things are seriously spiraling out of control. All my size 10 pants are now tight. I feel bloated and ill. I know that if I don’t get on top of things immediately, I’m in real trouble. I could gain it all back so quickly. But, I know there is still another week of holiday parties, my birthday, my daughter’s birthday and New Years coming up…. So, things were really looking a bit scary. I started following the plan very strict. Making sure my phone alerts rang louder so I would stop to eat on schedule at work. And, I had lost my water bottle, so I bought a new one and started using it, and got more water in – I know how critical that water is! The weather is freezing right now, and since I am feeling cold a lot, drinking my ice water is not as appealing as it used to be. My solution was to switch to drinking the water at tap temperature, no ice, which works for now.

Week 21.4 : 

As of this morning, January 1, 2010 = Weight 162 lbs.

[yes, I stopped blogging, went in the bathroom, stripped and weighed so I could give you that].  

Relief. I’m down 2 pounds since Monday. And I’ve even eaten out every night this week. But, I’ve been careful. And, I’ve been drinking more water.

It’s still discouraging that after 6 WEEKS I actually weigh 2 pounds MORE than my weight 6 weeks ago.


So, it’s time for an assessment. After 21 WEEKS and $1600 of my hard-earned money, I’ve lost 30 lbs, gained 6 lbs, with a total loss of 24 pounds.


  • I’ve lost 24 pounds.
  • I’ve lost ‘more inches than pounds’, having dropped 3 whole sizes.
  • I feel so much better. I look better. I can run and move again, and walk up a flight of stairs without getting out of breath.


  • No matter who you are, $1600 is a lot of money. And to us, it’s an awful lot of money which should be going to pay for other very important necessities right now.
  • The investment seems especially high when you also look at how many weeks I’ve been at this compared to the return.
  • I expected a much more rapid weight loss. Initially, I believed [and my health coach agreed] when starting in July, I could easily lose my 50 pound goal by Thanksgiving and successfully transition off the program by Christmas. That didn’t happen for me.
  • The food has gotten boring. I like the food, don’t get me wrong. I have some of my favorites that I really rely on and I’ll always crave the Carmel Nut bar… But, it’s still processed, bland food.
  • This month, I allowed myself to eat a lot of foods that are not on the plan, and they tasted REALLY, REALLY good. They probably tasted MUCH better than they would have if I had not been denied eating them for so long … like fruit…. and bread …. and chocolate.
  • Maintining my weight loss after stopping the Medifast meals is going to be very difficult without a serious new plan in place.

So, what happens next?


I invested in a full order at the beginning of December. That took more than half of our Christmas . Christmas this year was very meager for our entire family so that I could have my Medifast. The idea was that it would be totally worth the investment if I didn’t gain any weight in December and was at least able to maintain what I had lost up to this point.

[Is my guilt coming in loud and clear enough?]

I now have at least 3 weeks of food remaining, so I will obviously stay on the plan for at least 3 more weeks. But, it looks like after 3 weeks, I will only be back to about 156 and/or a 30 pound loss. Then what? My goal weight is 130. Which means I still have 30 more pounds to go.


I have learned by trial and error that the only way I am going to keep off the weight which I have lost and still be able to live a normal life of sometimes-eating-what-I-want, and sometimes-going-to-a-party, and sometimes-going-out-to-eat…etc. [reality] then I MUST EXERCISE.

Exercise is absolutely 110% REQUIRED. I’ve been sliding by on the program with hit-and-miss exercise. I was doing really well when the weather stayed clear and warm and I could walk the dog. Now we’re in subzero temps and the streets are dangerously ice and snow laden. The weekly weight loss always coincided to larger numbers when I was exercising more. Always. But, I was still able to lose something for a while without exercise. I hit a wall several weeks ago. My body simply cannot move into the next level without regular, sustained exercise being included. I wish I had implemented it from the beginning. Maybe I would have reached my goal by now. I don’t know. But hindsight can’t change my today, only my tomorrows. Hopefully, somebody reading this can learn from my mistakes. EXERCISE!


1. GYM MEMBERSHIP I went to my husband’s gym a couple of weeks ago to sign us up for a “couple plan”. Ironically, I found out that we already have a couples gym membership! Yes, for the past year we have been paying every single month for a membership I didn’t know I had.  Good grief.

OK. The “good news” is that I can check this bullet item off. I now have a scanner card hanging from my key chain, just itching to be used.

2. GYM USE – This is what’s killing me. The actual using of the gym membership. I can’t figure out WHEN to actually go. If you saw my schedule, you would understand how hard this is going to be. Right now it looks like my options are 4:30 am6 PM or 11 PM. None of these are ideal, all have complications, and none can be a consistent option every day due to varying commitments. Ugh! I know. I’m just going to have to force myself to drive down there sometime each day. I am going to have to accept that it will never be easy. [Sometimes I really hate having to work my full-time 9-hour-per-day office day job. This is one of those times]

3. MEAL PLANNING The MF meals are turning into a crutch. I have to go back to eating real food eventually, and I have to learn how. It all comes down to measuring portion sizes and making healthy choices, and stocking my kitchen with things that work. I know this. But, as a busy working Mom, Medifast works. It works almost too well. I can see how people just keep buying and buying because they don’t want the hassle of transitioning off. And, truth be told, I dont’ think most long-term MF Success Stories ever fully go off. They love the products, and they supplement their meals with MF. And, as long as you can keep affording to do that, more power to you!


Looks like I have some exciting challenges ahead for 2010! I don’t have all the answers yet, however, it was good to get it all down on paper so-to-speak. I will NOT allow myself to balloon back up and gain all I have lost. No way. This train is headed on a one-way track downhill, folks!

Sorry for the long ramble. You get a big prize if you read the whole thing. [For my next post, I promise there will be pictures and/or webcam!]

Happy New Year! Let’s make 2010 the BEST year ever!

Week 15 Medifast Photos

I was able to finally take updated photos this week. Until now, it has been hard for me to see the difference in myself in the mirror. I know that I have lost weight. Obviously, the scale reads 24 less pounds, and I’m down nearly two dress sizes. However, having a visual of comparing “before” photos side-by-side with “current” photos, really helped put things into perspective. I’m going to swallow all of my pride here, and share the results so far.

My First Photos – yikes!


 And now…

WEEK 15 – my last weigh-in. (I cannot get the editing tool to format this the same as the last one. It’s driving me crazy!!! I apologize for the smaller view)

Medifast Week 15

Remember, this should not be considered my “after” photo, but rather as a ‘work in progress’ photo. I am far from finished! For me, the side view was most startling. That is where you can really see how my belly fat has reduced! Consequently, with such smaller circumference I can now wear a size 10/12 instead of 16. When I posed for the first photos, I purposely chose some shorts and a sport bra that were waaaayyy too small, with the idea that I would “shrink into them”. It’s nice that is what’s happening.

My next goals are as follows:

1. 4 more weeks of Medifast Take Shape For Life  – with an option to extend for 8 weeks. (My next order will process and ship this week).

2. Continue daily lunch-hour walk/jogs, with a 2-hour walk/jog on Saturday. I will also begin to introduce free weights, strength training and body sculpting.

3. A goal to lose 15  lbs. by Jan 1st. (that’s only asking for approx. 2 lb. loss per week). More would certainly be welcome!

4. Survive the Holidays WITHOUT GAINING! (my #1 challenge).

Week 15 Medifast V-Log

After being stuck on a 5 week weight loss plateau, I was very discouraged by last week. For Week #15 on the Medifast Take Shape For Life program I ramped up the exercise and stuck to plan. Find out the results.

“Hand In Hand” A Ballet By Amputees

A MUST SEE! Performed in 2007 by Ma Li (馬麗) and Zhai Xiaowei (翟孝偉). The music was composed by San Bao, originally for a very popular TV episode in China, named Qian Shou (牵手 “Hand in Hand”). These two young amputee athletes demonstrate the power of the human mind and body. Anything is possible!

Vodpod videos no longer available.

Week 14 Medifast V-Log

Making Exercise Fun

Wouldn’t it be nice if every city had one of these?


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